Day 49

Men, I'm warning you right now this post is all about women stuff.

So the last couple of days have been really hard. One thing I have never mentioned is that about 3 years ago I was diagnosed with PMDD. One of my initial hopes was that with a healthy PCP lifestyle my symptoms would decrease. Well in fact this month it's here with a vengance. Some months are better than others, but when it's bad it's really bad. I have every single highlighted item on the list below and the ones in red are the ones that really interfere with my daily life.

These usually last about a week to two weeks a month and subside after, you know after my friend comes. But, that little bastard doesn't seem to want to come this month. This has happened the last time I trained hard and lost some weight. I didn't get it for like 6-8months.

It really sucks because I am so cranky, I just hate everything and everyone right now, I am completely EXHAUSTED all the time, my back is KILLING ME, I want to eat everything in the house. And by the way that's just what I did the other night. Unfortunately, or maybe fortunately, all I have in the house are healthy things so I ended up downing the following; 6 pitted dates, an extra apple, an extra egg white, 5 dried pineapple rings, cup of Kashi 7 whole grain cereal puffs with skim, 30 grams of a whole wheat baguette, I think there might have been some cold yams and I'm sure there is some other things I can't think of now...anyway this was after my evening snack so I already had consumed all my food for the day. Even after that I was still hungry but I made myself go to bed. I really want to eat something else tonight but right now I am just too tired to move.

I trained Capoeira tonight and my lack of coordination, focus, extreme fatigue and backache made it really freaking difficult. I had to fight hard not to just pick up and walk out of class. Then I came home and had to do my timed jumps. That sucked even more. My shins are so sore and I couldn't keep a rhythm to save my life. Ugh...I think I'm done for the night. Going to bed. Can't wait till this time next week when I can feel like myself again.

Day 41

I'm still not getting used to all this damn yogurt. My taste buds absolutely hate it and I think my body does too. I've been feeling pretty nauseous lately and I feel like I have heart burn all the time. I can't think of anything else that might be causing it because I've been eating the same stuff that I was eating before, minus the yogurt of course. I switched to the regular kind because the greek really truly tastes like puke. It's better, but still nasty. I put in like 5 blueberries today to help kill the nastiness but I'm still not feeling it. I'm hoping I won't have to eat it 3x a day for much longer.

Teaching ran late on Monday. I didn't get home until around 10:30 pm and I wasn't able to get my workout in. So, I ended up doing the exercises for both day 39 and 40 yesterday. I thought it would kill me but it actually wasn't so bad. Today my upper back and shoulders are feeling a bit sore but I guess that is to be expected.

Hmm...what else? I'm feeling super tired at the moment and wish I could take a nap. I wish my bosses would allow us 1 hour a day for nap time. Studies show that nap time not only refreshes the mind, but can make you smarter.

Day 34

Dried fruit is the devil!

Yesterday I found these all natural, organic, dried pineapple and apple rings. No added sugar, no salt, just pure deliciousness. Once I started eating them I couldn't stop. I didn't want to stop. My brain kept telling me, it's OK Mickey. It's fruit. It's all natural. It's following the rules. Well, maybe if I had weighed out my fruit portion and then only ate that. Which is totally not what I did. I definitely ate much more than I should have and I'm feeling a bit ill this morning. I feel like my belly has tripled in size. I think I might have to outlaw dried fruit for the rest of my Peak.

I also feel like I am not seeing the results that I should be at this point. Is it the baked Oriental yams for breakfast? Do yams count as a veggie or carb? Is it my 1 pack of sugar-free gum a day habit? Or is it the extra piece of fruit that I have been sneaking almost everyday? Probably all three.

Well from now on, I am going to try much harder to follow my portion sizes. I mean what the hell is the point of abstaining from alcohol, sugar and salt if I'm just going to fatten myself up with approved foods.

Day 20

That's so freaky.

I just received an email from Patrick. He talked about people getting sick while on the Peak. Well it just so happens that this morning I woke up with a terrible sinus headache and have been stuffed up, hot/ cold, sneezy, and overall feeling like dirt all day. I picked up some Sudafed at lunch hoping it would help cure or, at the very least, subdue my aliments. I feel a tab better but mostly like I have a giant "Brain Cloud." I'm heading home from work soon and am going to take his advice by cutting down my reps, etc. Then I'll have dinner and straight to bed. I HAVE TO GET BETTER BY FRIDAY!! I am going upstate for our yearly Winter Capoeira Retreat. Three days full of training, playing capoeira, maculele, yoga, music and fun. I refuse to be sick and have to miss out.

Oh by the way...Did you know that Sudafed has 20mg of sodium per pill. Why is that necessary? Also, Halls cough drops have a ton of sugar. No worries though, I found sugar-free ones too. But, really...salt in a pill!?!

Brain Cloud at 2:23